Hello my Poo!
i know to wish you could be here with us on Daddy's day...but we know you are here anyways. I made sure Da had a fun day today . I gave him all your presents at just the right times! We went on a trip to the Fresno zoo today! we thought about you the while time and saw so many things we knew you'd love. I wished I could have bought you a souvenir shirt like we used to...or one of those spinning globe light toys that you used to be mesmerized with. Daddy loved your book so much. I know he will look at it all the time. We had fun at the bird show too, a falcon almost hit Da in the head lol. We thought about how you'd have loved the petting zoo, and would have wanted to feed the giraffes! We had a coconut ice cream bar for you, and made a flattened souvenir penny for your collection. We saw lots of dragon flies & bumble bees that made us think of you...and the elephants, you would have loved them. We even came for a visit with you this morning, and cleaned your stone like we always do. We know you're still here in our hearts Poo. thanks for making today a good one my son. I love you.

Came for our weekly visit with you today Poo...missing you so much my beautiful baby. Talked with Da today about how your future might have been..how you come to us in your dreams...I love you always

hello my son. i cant believe it has been 6 months since i have seen that big bright smile of yours, and heard that sweet little voice call me...."Da!" time is going by way to fast and i wish that i could just go back to the days where we'd just hang around the house and play with all ur toys and eat yummy snacks and take naps just becuase we were so worn out from all the luaghing and playing. i used to tell mama that the weekend was daddy days. just me and you. daddy all day. id wake up and go into your room and you always were awake greeting me with a great big smile. i miss that moment that feeling. and now everytime i go into your room i still look over at your crib and still say " Poo....?" just hopeing one day that ill call you and look up and see that shining smile of yours. these days are so boring and tastless without you. you are 20 months old now! almost 2! such a big boy. me and ma just keep wondering what we think that you would be doing these days. we come up with all kinds of things, and i know you hear us and are probaly going to, or already doing those things. you are my one love. i will never love like i did with you my son. 

my heart is all yours forever and always...i love you.

when the daylight comes ill have to go....but tonite i wanna hold you sooo close.......... 

Hello my beautiful baby! Ma wrote you a poem yesterday, since you have been sending me so many ladybugs lately 

I feel your soul in the wind, an embrace in every pass,
I see your soul ever growing, in the long, tall green grass.
You send me things from Heaven,
that only I can see, you show yourself in ladybugs and sometimes a lone bumblebee.
To hear your laughter was warmer than the sun,
I can just imagine you running around playing and having fun.
I know you chase the bubbles I blow at your grave,
its all I have left of the beautiful boy Mama couldnt save.
God took you home to be with him in his kingdom above,
Ill have to wait my turn to go but for now Ill continue to look for signs of your love.

Love, Ma

I miss you so much today, and everyday my little Poo. The world is just not the same without you. It lacks joy, shine and happiness without you here to bring all of those things and more. The physical world really lost something special the day you had to go. You should be here, with me and Da...you should be growing up with us. I still get sad alot Drakey...I cant help it, I just miss you so much. I miss being your Ma, and taking care of you. I miss waking up in the morning to the sound of your voice, or the thud of you throwing your bottle out of your crib on the floor. I miss making your breakfast in the morning, and drinking my coffee while you could just play forever. I cant believe its been almost 5 months since the last time I got to see you, or hold you...or kiss your little head. Now I can only hope that you will come visit me in my dreams. Its the only time I get to hold you now. I miss your soft baby skin, and the smell of you right after bathtime. I miss the vein that was right in between your eyes, and how my hair would tickle your belly, and you would laugh so hard. I miss those nights when Daddy would let you sleep in bed with us, in the middle right where you belonged. Tucked right next to one of us. I miss your little voice, that was just beginning to start forming words...I even miss clipping your little nails and brushing your teeth. I think of all the things we might be doing right now...running, jumping, potty training...I just wish I could experience all of those things with you so bad. I really wish I could have gotten to hear you tell me and Da "I love you"...but we know you love us Boo. Not a minute of the day goes by that I dont think about you. I love you my Angel boy....<3

Love, Mama